Don’t Get My Hopes Up

I found another home and actually went out to look at it. Yesterday was my birthday and this is what I want. Yes, I know I’m not a child that believes in every birthday wish but this was so me. We went yesterday to look at it, with being my birthday on the same day, maybe that could influence the universe a little bit.

It was a nice home with a nice yard, nothing too fancy. The current owners are still living there but they were gone while we looked around. They decorated just as I would and even the yard had bird feeders and wind chimes just like me! I can’t put my wind chimes outside here because they’ll get stolen but I do have two that I truly like and I have them inside for now. But as I walked around the yard, there were little butterfly ornaments in the trees and smaller windchimes in others. A little bench was placed beside a shady tree while the lawn was well taken care of.

There’s an extra room that I could use as my office and not have to be in my bedroom at the same time as working. Not to forget the bathroom that I would have to myself. I have forgotten what it’s like to not have to yell for someone to flush the toilet or put my things away so that other things can be out that someone else needs. Oh, what it would be like to know I could have my things where I want them in my own bathroom. I know that sounds silly, but the older home we’re in right now has only one and it’s quite small. So as of right now, it does have a tub but it’s a 1950’s tub and is truly only big enough for children, that means no baths for me.

I’m scared, I don’t want to get my hopes up and I feel them starting to lift. I’ve contacted the mortgage company again after I’ve worked so hard these past three months to get everything lined up. We still have a buyer for this house but now my neighbour wants to buy it also. The only thing about that is I worry about the transaction with my neighbour. I’m selling it “as-is” and I don’t think they believe me when I tell them all the work that needs to be done on it. Another thing is the money processing time, the company that wants it says all I have to do is say when and they would direct deposit it to me. With my neighbour, I would think they would have to take out a loan and I have no idea how long that would take them. I love them to pieces but I don’t want to lose out on anything either, that is if it looks like it can happen.

It’s driving me crazy all the waiting. I responded to the mortgage company’s email and haven’t gotten anything back yet. Yes, it’s only been a couple of hours but I’m freaking out, does that mean good or bad news? I feel like bursting out in tears from all the stress.

Don’t get my hopes up, don’t get my hopes up……..


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I like to think I'm a normal everyday woman but my mind tells me otherwise. I fight my battles and post them here. I don't tell my family and real life friends that I write here. This is my own little way of having "someone" to talk to. My own little therapy session if you will. I welcome comments and opinions but I have enough negativity to last a lifetime already . My world is changing and now more than ever I need support and encouragement but I'm still too afraid to let anyone know that it's me writing here.