Second Thought

I don’t feel like I’m a part of anything, like a group of friends or even a group of coworkers. I just feel alone in all aspects of my life right now and no one seems to know how that feels.

There’s a little “newsletter” that work does so that you can get to know your coworkers a bit more. We’re not a big group so I knew my time to have my information in this newsletter was coming up. The girl running it asked for my info and I gave it to her along with a little bit about myself, that she asks everyone for. I came into work this morning to find my “edition” in my email as it was distributed to everyone. So now, after I’ve worked really hard to have people get to know me and it’s not that easy in a virtual setting. Everyone now has, what has to be, someone else’s information because I was not born in Minnesota in which it states.

I know it shouldn’t be a big deal to me but it feels like one like I don’t even matter to them enough to make sure that it’s right. Wouldn’t you think that they would know they’re reading something that they just put on another newsletter? Did they even bother to read it before sending it out? I’ve never seen a retraction on any other so they must have gotten them right before they got to me.

It’s just been a rotten week already and then I come in to this? Why can’t I just matter enough to one person so that I know there is someone that cares about me and that I am here for a reason. Sometimes the smallest of things can make the biggest difference to someones day and this one was a negative difference. But we should take the time to make sure that what we do is good enough for the person that it will affect. If not, it just might make that person feel like a second thought, like this does to me.

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About meinaboxblog

I like to think I'm a normal everyday woman but my mind tells me otherwise. I fight my battles and post them here. I don't tell my family and real life friends that I write here. This is my own little way of having "someone" to talk to. My own little therapy session if you will. I welcome comments and opinions but I have enough negativity to last a lifetime already . My world is changing and now more than ever I need support and encouragement but I'm still too afraid to let anyone know that it's me writing here.