Yesterday was a slow day around the house. I didn’t feel like doing anything except being a blob in front of the television. With all of the stress lately, my energy has all but depleted. It actually felt good to waste two hours on an old John Wayne movie and almost forget what has been happening.
After that of course, I wasn’t able to let the shopping trip go another day as we had two stores to go to, the hardware store and the grocery store. It’s been so bad lately that even shopping doesn’t appeal to me anymore. But as I’m the driver in the house, off we went. The hardware store was actually relaxing and I don’t know why but it just seemed calm in there for some reason. My nerves settled down a bit as we headed to the grocery store. It was quiet in there at first and then I could feel more and more people filling up the isles. With it being Sunday, we might have gotten there just before church let out and now everyone was doing their Sunday shopping in their Sunday best.
Splurges haven’t been on my list lately, or for a long time, but I just felt like we deserved it even though that sounds selfish. But I bought a movie for us all to watch when we got home. It wasn’t a cartoon and it wasn’t a horrible violent one either, it was a family movie that we all actually enjoyed. Later on, about dusk, we had to go outside and put our hardware store trip to work. I took one step outside the door where the change in temperature and smell of the air took me by surprise. The coolness seemed to make the air smell so fresh and inviting, I couldn’t get enough. Literally, I couldn’t get enough. We finished the work we had to do but I just couldn’t bring myself to go inside. Maybe I just missed being outside so much but I knew it wasn’t safe to stay too long in our yard. We all decided that we would go for a ride with our windows slightly opened. We drove around for about an hour with the windows open just enough for a nice breeze to flow through the car. We stopped for a drink before heading back to the house but the air was just amazing.
This morning, even though I have to work, I feel rejuvenated. I’ve decided to take things into my own hands and look for companies that will finance me with what I have. I’ve been waiting for others to answer me on “who they work with” except for one that I found through the website that you look for houses on and well, she’s a joke. But this morning, I’m doing my research and going to see if I can do anything about it. I feel good but I’m also hoping it isn’t just the air that is making me feel optimistic.
One day at a time, I can’t do anything but what I’m doing and that is my best.