Hospitals Make Me Nervous

There’s a lot of emotions going through my mind right now. My brother-in-law has to have surgery next week and it’s a serious one. He’s going to be at a fantastic hospital so I know he’s at the best place possible but it’s still scary. I’m going to be there and be with my sister but I know she’s going to be freaking out. He’s had high blood pressure but nothing other than that before so it’s weird to think of him needing surgery.

His mother and the rest of his family haven’t been very active in his life unless they want something and his mother has decided to be there. My sister has never gotten along with her so I’m wondering how that’s going to go. I don’t care too much for the woman myself because of the way she treated them. He’s been more a part of my family than of his own birth family. They’ve been together since they were 14 and 16 and now they have three kids and three granchildren so they’ve stood the test of time. They are who I want to live close to and I am closest to in my family, he’s my brother in all sense of the word except for being married to my sister.

I’ve been thinking about this non stop and I do wish my brain would stop it for just a little bit. I can only imagine what they are going through, knowing it’s coming up. They have to go in the day before so that they can do something with his blood before surgery but I won’t get there until the next day. I’m hoping to see him before he goes in so that he knows we’re there. I think it makes a difference when you know someone is there for you. When I had my surgery, there was no one waiting for me and I knew it and felt horrible.

He’s in good hands and that is for sure so I need to stop worrying. But if my sister starts crying, I just might lose it. The surgery is for May 15th, I wouldn’t mind some extra prayers or good thoughts to the universe for him. Hospitals just make me nervous.

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I like to think I'm a normal everyday woman but my mind tells me otherwise. I fight my battles and post them here. I don't tell my family and real life friends that I write here. This is my own little way of having "someone" to talk to. My own little therapy session if you will. I welcome comments and opinions but I have enough negativity to last a lifetime already . My world is changing and now more than ever I need support and encouragement but I'm still too afraid to let anyone know that it's me writing here.