It’s my first night home in a couple of days. I’ve been with family as my brother-in-law had his surgery done. He ended up having a stroke due to the procedure of stopping the blood flow to his brain. They had to remove a tumor in his neck and this was the only way to do it. If they hadn’t removed the tumor, it would have continued to grow and restrict the blood flow anyway.
He’s a very lucky man, the stroke has left him with a little numbness in his left hand and foot but you would never know by talking to him. His balance is a bit off due to the numbness and he will need therapy, but he had so many tests done. One of the tests show that he has a hole in his heart. They said that a lot of people have them and just don’t know it. This will be another surgery but his neck is still too swollen in order to do a probe and see his heart.
Last night, they let him come home so he is resting right now. I can’t imagine how scary it would feel to have someone tell you that you have a hole in your heart, let alone that you had a stroke. It’s frightening that we’re all getting to an age where this is going to happen just because of age. He’s still young though and they said he’s really in good health, otherwise they wouldn’t even think of doing the heart surgery. I don’t like the feeling of getting older when it comes to the thought of mortality. I don’t know if I’m afraid of death or not right now.
The world is a truly crazy place to live right now, but it’s also extremely beautiful and I don’t feel like I’ve seen enough of it. I could never leave this world without knowing that my family will be okay also. So I don’t think I’m okay with the thought of death and I don’t want it to happen to my family right now.
I do know that my brother-in-law truly was lucky with how he came through the stroke. I’m glad he’s going to be okay and we’ll get through the heart surgery when they schedule it. Maybe I’ll have him buy me a lottery ticket with all that luck he’s got.