We’re actually down to the point of signing paperwork for selling our house. Once I send in the paperwork tomorrow, there’s no turning back. I’m scared out of my mind that it’s actually happening but I know it’s the right thing to do.
Yesterday we took the long drive to go out to the new house, the yard is in need of some TLC and so we decided to try and get as much as we could done. We had a lawnmower, two weed eaters (one with a metal blade), a chainsaw and rakes. We used all but the chainsaw and were only able to get most of the front yard done. I don’t think I’ve ever seen grass so tall and strong before, we googled it and I think it’s called swamp grass.
I was surprised we didn’t see any snakes all day long but there were some wasps, spiders and yuck…frogs. I’m told that these frogs are all over the place there and they make me shiver! They have little suction cups on their feet and can jump and stick to everything…ooh, I get creeped out just typing that.
We found an old little manmade pond, super tiny with a little plastic liner that someone had placed there. Well, we cleared the grass and there are actually gold fish in it and thriving! I wasn’t wanting it at first because my first thought with standing water is mosquitos but I would think the fish would eat anything like that, right?
My birds are all filled around the feeders outside my window, I guess I will have to find new birds and they will have to find new feeders. It’ll take a while to get them set up again and I miss them already. We’re going to have access again to it next week so I’m going to go up and try to start cleaning the inside. I just can’t move in without cleaning, no way. So we’re at 5 weeks and counting, I have to get through this.
The house is in the middle of the woods, some say forest so I do have to buy a shotgun for a wayward animals that might endanger our family. It’s an entirely different way of living for me and I can’t say that I’m not nervous. But I am looking forward to being able to play outside in the yard with my granddaughter and her cousins. Having a garden and fruit trees. Being able to call my sister and ask her to have lunch and know that it’s only a 10 minute difference and not a two hour difference.
The price I’m paying feels very high with it being the selling of the family house that I grew up in but I know others that have done it and survived. I do think my current neighbors are upset with me as they haven’t spoken to me since I let them know that it was finally happening. I don’t think they actually believed it would happen. That makes me sad as they are beautiful people.
So as many sad feelings that I have, I hope to have just as many if not more happy ones in our future. Fingers crossed.